I feel like we need to ease into things this time. It was a harsh breakup last year with no warning. No "I need a break" or "It's not you, it's me" although once when I passed by I thought I heard, "If you loved me, you'd do it." (I didn't fall for that--my mom would be so proud.)
It was good for a few months and I felt we really connected. Then one day it was over--
I was just done--and the ending wasn't pretty (neither was the weight gain that often comes after a break up).
So, now I'm going to take things a little slower. I'm not rushing out to buy new clothes for our time together like I've done in the past (although I
want could always use a new pair of shoes). I'll wear the same outfits
that are now snug that I've worn plenty of times before...I'm not trying to impress anyone.
Aren't we always a bit more cautious on the second
or thirty-ninth or eighty-seventh time around? It's never been about love at first sight (AT ALL) but I'm hoping
this time to reach a point where I'm comfortable with more commitment on my part. Maybe even being a bit more forgiving on this go 'round--we don't need to see each other on a daily basis but a few times a week would be good--or at least a good start.
I recognize that relationships have their share of pain and this one is no different. For me, it's always most noticeable in the beginning when I'm trying to figure things out. Oh, and there is real pain now. But once the
damn treadmill and I get through this stage of getting reacquainted(again...sigh) and are on friendly terms, I'd welcome a bit of a honeymoon phase.
LOL I need to get to know my treadmill again too. We had a very nasty break up quite some time ago
ReplyDeleteOh geez, this is hilarious!!!
ReplyDeleteThat's the only relationship worth trying to save that many times. ;)
ReplyDeleteLOL..love it. I have to say, I will run outdoors for 40 minutes and 2 minutes on the treadmill has me bored and checking the timer.
ReplyDeleteTreadmill, I dont heart you.
I recently broke up with my gym. It hasn't been easy, moving on, but I think it's best for both of us. OK, no it isn't, but I have to tell myself something.
ReplyDeleteYup. Me and you both.
ReplyDeleteHa ha haa. This is my first time coming here and I was all like, "man I hope I didn't just stumble on one of those super serious, you probably shouldn't be telling the world this before talking to your therapist," blogs... so thanks, I just got a good chuckle out of that.
ReplyDeleteToo funny. What is with us buying new clothes to work out in when we decide we are going to start working out again. I thought it was just me. I like how you are going about it this time!
ReplyDeleteLove this.
ReplyDeleteFor me it's the bowflex.. It sits in my bedroom beckoning me, but I've been brave... For now, we just stack clothes on it and pretend it's not there.
ReplyDeleteGood for you! I hope you and it get reacquainted and your clothes fit better!
All these years, I've never known there was such a thing as a honeymoon period in that kind of relationship! SOB! Maybe I am high maintenance of difficult or demanding, but I hate almost every second of it and love...being done!
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